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For many years I experienced much peace while meditating and my general feeling was one of a calm and very peaceful person. Now I experience little to no peace. It is as though I have been reborn in the hell realms without dying and without explanation.
September 11, 2014, 8:56 pm
If you say that it is like hell now, then your practice of zazen until now was a problem. If you were practising a kind of zazen where you were protecting your quiet state of mind, then you just simply let yourself flow with the circumstances. So if these are good, you believed to be doing good zazen. Now the situation has changed, and actually it is now that your real zazen practice is starting, I believe. Zazen is not intoxication. To be in hell and not be moved around by even that, that is true zazen. Please keep working on the ripening of your immovable mind.